1. BUT TO TRULY UNDERSTAND HATE, YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO CONTROL IT

This entire thing is a plot to destroy my low self-confidence
I'm trying as hard as I can not to lose myself in all of this
Through failed relationships and regretful sentiments to everyone I know
It's probably safer if every night I just stay home

And kids will laugh and say that all my music sounds the same
It's got those solemn melodies, I'm sure he's real weak at the knees
But what they don't know is I'm paralyzed by constant streaks of black bag eyes
It took me this long to realize that everything I compose sounds the same

And everything is about everything I hate


2. I BET YOU'VE NEVER EVEN LISTENED TO UNKNOWN PLEASURES

Confusion in her eyes, it says it all
She's lost control
You don't know
You don't even know what the waves mean
You don't even know what the waves mean

You bought your t-shirt at a Hot Topic
You should go exchange it for a new lifestyle
You wouldn't know disorder if it hit you in the face
Peter Hook, line, and sinker
It's common Ian Courtesy, common Ian Courtesy
You spend your Bernie Sumners pretending to cry
Pretending to air drum to Stephen Morris
The riff to ‘Transmission'

The only division you're supporting
Is the one between those who believe
And those who cheat


3. WATCH

Watch me fall apart again
Watch me slip away again
Watch me lose control again
Watch me fall to pieces every time

I guess I'm still just trying to figure this out
I guess I'm still just trying to figure this out
I guess I'm still just trying to find a way out
I guess I'm still just trying to find a way out

Watch me fall apart again
Watch me slip away again
Watch me come undone again
Watch me fall to pieces every time

I guess I'm still just trying to figure this out
I guess I'm still just trying to figure this out
I guess I'm still just trying to find a way out
I guess I'm still just trying to find a way out


4. CAN'T BELIEVE

Was I ever alive? Will I ever be free?
Was I ever alive? Tell me
Was I ever alive? Will I ever be free?
Was I ever alive? Tell me

Feel this pain crash under me
Feel this pain, I can't believe
Feel this pain crash under me
Feel this pain, I can't believe

I loved you, I hate you
I can't believe, I can't believe
This isn't me, this isn't me
This isn't me, this isn't me

Was I ever alive? Will I ever be free?
Was I ever alive? Tell me
Was I ever alive? Will I ever be free?
Was I ever alive? Tell me

Feel this pain crash under me
Feel this pain, I can't believe
Feel this pain crash under me
Feel this pain, I can't believe

I loved you, I hate you
I can't believe, I can't believe
This isn't me, this isn't me
This isn't me, this isn't me


5. NEVER MIND THE CHEERFUL

The fault is always mine
Apologies are constantly flowing from my mouth
You've given me your time
Enough of it for you to fully figure me out
You say that I should stop
Being so hard on myself and wear a different mask
And see if I could drop
The exponential overwhelming self-loathing act

But I can't
It's who I am

I could be well received
If I just shut the fuck up about negativity
And see if I can be
A little better at thinking positively
I'm sorry I got mad
I'm sorry I am useless
My apologetic tab
Is longer than the hit list with every spot having my name filled in

I just can't
It's who I am

I feel a change coming on
(Run away from the strange, run away from the strange)

I feel a change coming on
(Run away from the strange, run away from the strange)

Don't think I'll be here too long
(Start thinking differently, start thinking differently)

Don't think I'll be here too long
(Start thinking differently)

I can't think differently

(You should act differently) I can't act differently
(You should sing differently) I can't sing differently
(You should feel differently) You should feel differently


6. SAMSARA

I'm wounded by my constant attachment
To everything being exactly the way I wanted it to be
But I know that I should just let go and breathe slow
And watch the universe unfold in front of me
It's all in front of me

‘Cause every time that I try to change my life I've come to realize
That it's my mind which needs to be changed instead
Welcome to this world of mine, Samsara all the time
There's no way I'm gonna get out of here

I'm wounded by my constant attachment
To the fulfillment of all my hopes and dreams
But I know that I should just let go and breathe slow
And watch the universe unfold in front of me
It's all in front of me

‘Cause every time that I try to change my life I've come to realize
That it's my mind which needs to be changed instead
Welcome to this world of mine, Samsara all the time
There's no way I'm gonna get out of here


7. BRAND NEW SONG

I think I'm gonna make the worst out of every situation from now on
I don't know what I'm supposed to look forward to or how I'm gonna sing this song
I think I'm gonna feel the worst kind of feelings that my mother never said were okay
I don't know what I'm supposed to think about anything, I'm trying to find the right words to say

I'm sorry I don't give you what you want
I'm sorry I don't give you what you need
I'm sorry for the things that I think and never tell you 'cause I'm scared of how you're gonna respond
I'm sorry for the songs that I write that make it sound like things are going ever terribly wrong

I think I'm gonna dedicate every single song to you even when they're not good
I don't really wanna break anything that I don't have to
I think I'm gonna recreate every single thing that I have deeply suppressed
I don't really wanna wait for the next heart attack but I hope it's not you

I'm sorry I don't give you what you want
I'm sorry I don't give you what you need
I'm sorry for the things that I think and never tell you 'cause I'm scared of how you're gonna respond
I'm sorry for the songs that I write that make it sound like things are going ever terribly wrong

Will I remove myself from what I'm feeling?
Will I detach my lungs from all of the screaming?
Will I fall flat onto my chest and break everything?
I just want to go and break everything

Break everything at all in my path
And soon enough I think I will collapse
I can take it all in stride
Or I can take it till I die
Or I can leave it all behind
But I don't wanna leave you tonight


8. BASEMENT

Sitting here in the basement, write a song for you
For you
Pickin' on this broken down guitar
And wondering how far away are you
Are you
Are you

So light a few more sticks of incense and
Write some poetry
Because standing here beside you
Is the place that I will always be
Light a few more sticks of incense and
Write some poetry
Because standing here beside you
Is the place that I will always be, yeah

Sitting here in the basement, write a song for you
For you
Pickin' on this broken down guitar
And wondering how far away are you
Are you
Are you

So light a few more sticks of incense and
Write some poetry
Because standing here beside you
Is the place that I will always be
Light a few more sticks of incense and
Write some poetry
Because standing here beside you
Is the place that I will always be, yeah


9. Foster's Home For Imaginary Girlfriends

I know a girl who gets her hair done before going to funerals
I know a girl who's never going to have any children
I know a girl who's almost as angry as I am
I know a girl who doesn't know what poetry is

But she loves me
And I love her back
She's never gonna leave
I just have to remember to believe

I know a girl who slow dances to Metallica
I know a girl who doesn't believe in angels
I know a girl whose name reminds me of romance
I know a girl who makes me forget who I am

But she loves me
And I love her back
She's never gonna leave
I just have to remember to believe

She loves me
And I love her back
She's never gonna leave
Until I remember that she's not real


10. I'M SORRY I KEEP SAYING I'M SORRY

A year has passed since we first met, I reminisce
About the time I asked you for a single kiss
You said "No, thanks," and then you went and you complied
I wish that you would've stayed true to your first state of mind

Regrets flow through me every day
I'm sorry for all that I did, what else can I say?

We'd listen to Supertramp and SBTRKT
In my living room, we always said we wanted to reenact
Those things as much as we could
But I couldn't stand the thought of keeping something good
I've got this bad habit of losing everything

Regrets flow through me every day
I'm sorry for all that I did, what else can I say?
Regrets flow through me every day
I'm sorry for all that I did, what else can I say?

I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I wish that you were
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I wish that you were
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I wish that you were
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I wish that you were