1. HERE I STAND

My hands shake cuz today,
I know you're gonna break my heart and,
My life without you in it
Is a life not worth living.
I'll be strong but I wish I was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone, (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you, (Here I stand)
In my life, (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me.

So I'll start to pretend I'm ok
But you should know by now that
My life is smoke and mirrors,
The one thing is crystal clear
That I'm the one wishing i was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone, (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you, (Here I stand)
In my life, (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me.

(Where do we go?) (Where do we go?)

Inside I start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
And I'll pretend I'm holding on (Where do we go?)
So I guess ill bleed in silence.(In silence)
I guess I'll bleed in silence.

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone, (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you, (Here I stand)
In my life, (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me.

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone, (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you, (Here I stand)
In my life, (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me.


2. IN ANOTHER LIFE

I remember my first kiss
The butterflies, I know you felt them too
I can still taste your lips
That night I wrapped up all my love in you
But deep inside, I always knew
I must hate myself
Cause I also knew what day you'd destroy me

But there's something I've gotta know
(Before we say goodbye)
Will I see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)

I remember our First fight
Your skeletons were all up over you
I can still taste that night
When you told me you'd been beat up and abused
You'd had it all, bruised mouths don't die
It's not your fault, it was never your fault
That evil world for an innocent girl
It's not your fault, it was never your fault

There's something I've gotta know
(Before We say goodbye)
Will I see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)
Could've yried to be okay
(But I need you to know)
Wherever you are now
(That here we wouldn't go)

You were always great at running away
But you said forever, you promised forever
I forgive you, I've forgiven you
And now I just miss you, I'll always remember you

Go!

There's something I've gotta know
(Before we say goodbye)
Will I see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)
Could've tried to be okay
(But I need you to know)
Wherever you wre now
(That here we wouldn't go)


3. ADALIA

She wraps her tragic moments tightly around her neck
Then she hangs herself with them as I try to disconnect
Cuz she wants to choke on her life again
Breathing it in like a deadly poison.

She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes grow cold and she begs the world to just let her go

(But I won't let go)

She lives and breathes in a world that brought her to her knees
And now I'm addicted to her cuz that girl is just like me
And I'm gonna choke on her life again
I'm breathing it in like a deadly poison.
I just want to get through to her,
Before her last breath.

She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes grow cold and she begs the world to just let her go

She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
And she hides all alone inside the pain that she wont let go
Watching her life pass her by, watching it all through her watering eyes
But I'll be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies until the day she dies.


4. HOUSE OF CARDS

It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cause my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing I know about honesty
Is every lie I told that you believed

I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

Now I can't look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But I just can't cause

I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cause I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me, no

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

You'll be amazed


5. NOW OR NEVER

Too long in the same place
I'm sinking into this town.
I've charmed the same old snakes
I think we gotta get out
Before I break away from me
Cuz this place is my lobotomy.
Imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.

I can't contemplate the earth
All while my heads in the sand
Cuz I've been buried alive
So take my bleeding hands
And breathe life into me
Cuz right now I'm suffocating.
So imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes while
Everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.

I don't want a life of agony
I wont be another tragedy
And close my eyes while everything burns.
And I won't pretend I don't exist
Invisible until I turn to dust,
Open your eyes we're still alive.

Standing still is criminal
And never lasts forever.
The safest place in life is now,
Today's the day we're breaking out..

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.


6. PANDORA

The way you dance it turns me on
But you know that I'm spoken for
The way your sweat drips off your chest
You know that I'm wanting more

The lies the sex the heat this sweat
And nothing else matters
You call my name without your dress

I already forgot her
You have no idea what you do to me
And you, you have no idea what your doing to me

Pandora, I don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away, Pandora

the girl I love sits at home and i know that shes lonely
but I'm watching you take off your clothes
your the star of this movie
the love the hate the guilt my fate is hanging in the balance
you have no idea what you do to me
oh you don't even care what you mean to me

Pandora, I don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away, Pandora

And by the time that I come home shes already sleeping
Sit on the bed and take off my clothes
My nerves their shaking
The lies the sex the heat this sweat
Your body is quaking
The love the hate the guilt my fate
Against this temptress

Pandora, I don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away (Forever as I throw my life away)
Forever as I throw my life away, pandora


7. STARS

We walk past a dead end street to the top of a hill so we can be alone.
Under the moon it's beautiful.
The stars clear the black of night when I'm with you.
Nervously I take your hand and promise you I'll take you for a ride...
"Someday we'll have it all, you and we're gonna be stars"
We'll runaway from everything you hate,
Runaway to everything you've wanted
Take my hand let's get famous.
Runaway from everything you've fought
Runaway to everything you've loved
Take my hand lets get famous
I'm amazing how things can change.
How the real world can chase our dreams away.
How did you give up so easily?
Cuz I'd rather make them bury me... so let's
Runaway from everything you hate,
Runaway to everything you've wanted
Take my hand let's get famous.
Runaway from everything you've fought
Runaway to everything you've loved
Take my hand lets get famous
Our names in lights across the sky,
It's beautiful and our whole lives
Will be headlines across the whole world...


8. RIVER PEOPLE

I'll take your crystal ball
And make this crystal clear, that I won't stand back
And I won't drown right here
I'll never wait
I'll make a million mistakes
But to be content is to be a disgrace

They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
They have no hope
They have no soul if you let them they'll take yours

I think it feels better on the other side
Cause their grass is green and your grass is diseased
Every day drowns in lethargy but to be content is to burn way

They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
They have no soul if you let them they'll take yours

When you die you want the world to remember you for who you really are
And when you die you want to love yourself cause you'll be all alone

They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
They have no hope
They have no soul if you let them they'll take yours
They crawl in your head
Don't fear the unknown, cause you'll let them take control
So let yourself go, and let yourself go don't you let 'em take you a hold


9. ONE LAST KISS

She looked at me her eyes were watering
Then I knew that this was about to end
Frozen in that moment, time was standing still
I could feel my heart sinking from you

Goodbye, she said
I found somebody new

Cause I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

She walked away and I could hardly breath
Turn around and fell down to my knees
I'm shivering as the truth is settling
I'm sure tomorrow has nothing to do with you
I knew someday you'd find someone else like this
But before, you go
Could you just leave me one more kiss?

Cause I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cuz I'm all alone this time
Cuz I'm all alone this time
Cuz I'm all alone this time

I remember when you were falling
And I was their just holding onto you
And I remember all those
Scars I wear that you carved in me

And I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cause I'm all alone this time
Cause I'm all alone this time
I'm all alone this time


10. ME VS. THE WORLD

Sometimes I try not to hate myself
For everything I never said
When you were here
And so I'm burning up photographs
Of what was a perfect past
'Cause I'm still here
But I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

It's so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
So I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased
'Cause everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
'Cause I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference between
Me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt

So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
Has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song?
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
That never cared at all
That I need you here


11. MORNING SADNESS

Cut my eyes on visions of you
Memories aren't clear
I lost touch with the boy I knew
While you were still here

Have you met your god?
Does he know I'm in pain?
Does he even have any plans
For me to see you again?

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight

Damage done by a lost loved one
You can never forget
Questioning my faith in God
I know evil exists

So I look past the sky
It's where we're going tonight

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
On a mission to find her in heaven
Maybe we'll get to sleep next to God tonight

There's a razor with my name
It carves my life away
And I'll find out who's real
Right now

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a heart that has suffered
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a mind that is strangled


12. TRUE LOVE

If I lost it all in a fireball would you be there for me
If the moneys gone and the future falls would you walk away
Cause my confidence is vanishing will you leave me starving here
To wither down and disappear as you walk away

(...)

I'll never trust, never feel, never love again,
I chose this bitter tasting love

They always say true love is all you need
But when the love is gone you need something more
They say true love will never leave
But my true love is gone, and i can't go on

I'm in the catacombs of a broken heart where you used to be
When I loved you for all the reasons that you hated yourself
Cause you were desperate and pathetic but just as beautiful to me
As the day you left and i became just a memory

(...)

I'll never trust, never feel, never love again,
I chose this bitter tasting love

They always say true love is all you need
But when the love is gone you need more
They say true love will never leave
But my true love is gone, and I can't go on

It's 4 am and I'm picturing the way things used to be
But all I see is your looking at him like you used to look at me

They always say true love is all you need
But when the love is gone you need something more
They say true love will never leave
But my true love is gone, and I can't go on

I can't go on...