1. NOWAFTER

City lights raping minds
Have turned blue
And all the buildings shattered
Now after a party that never became

Yes the circle did close indeed
Became that strangling
Item on my neck
Since day one I was blessing you
Your voice always
Making love to me

Bodies like serpents
Fallen from my hands
Long lost babies moan
In a passionate moment
A gone motion afire
A picture I still have

A faceful of life
In a broken mirror
Crush the rest of this also.


2. USELESS

To shed a million tears
There is a chalice
Where all sorrow is poured from

Now take a bath
Stain the walls of this empty room
With tears of blood
With tears of blood

Like a leaf in an autumn river I am
Carried by a useless vortex
With no return to tree once strong
With no destination

This far enough not far enough not close enough as the last Of the
Eternities opens not close enough I reach I come
Until all words end just to be with you until all worlds end.

Hold me as it seems I fall
Take my hand as I think I am dying
Overflow as the depths whisper me welcome
To sleep where all beauty turns grey


3. STREAM

Cold stream of cold souls
Once so warm and loved
Forever gone those who meant much
For I am freezing and ice burns
Seeking caresses elsewhere
For I am freezing deep

Grief cuts deeper than deaths claw
A splash breaks the deafening silence
As they encounter the ground
From the widespread lake
Lament echoes
Tears reflect

Join the sweet silence
Drown to the beautiful
Calm waters of my soul
Embrace me till the pain fades
Embrace me.


4. TOWARDS DISTANT

(Instrumental, a voice of broadcast in Russian in the backward)


5. SNOW BLIND

Angels of warmth
Ice cold inside
White of yours
Growing on me

The air is thin
I want to be gone
It is about
To slip from my hands


6. DISTRESS

This world is a deceiver
It is thirsty for my blood
The rain is liquid nitrogen
To my soul of a wrong colour

This world is a deceiver
It vomits sticky oil on me
Stab me kill me
I hate this all to much.

May my face ripping tears be
The salt in your open wounds

...it all is
About to slip
From my hands
I want you
I don't want you
The white of yours
Is growing on me
The air is thin
I want to be gone
Broken and shattered...


7. (BUT I AM) STILL

Oh your lips are grey
Your dreamy silent waves
Shades on your belly soft
Shades to wash the desert sands

But I was am I am still
Waters, the sea is calling
I fall I sink I fall
Waters, the sea is coming close

Oh as always I try to see
But your marble eyes kill me again
Salt statues in the depths of seas
Containers
Containers


8. SWEET BLOOM OF NIGHT TIME FLOWERS

I want rusty nails
To penetrate my skin
To cut a wound and release this death
To let it all pour out
Collapsed
Under the light of a violet pain
I lie alone still

Come sleep
The sweetest of all thieves
The most delicate of all lovers
To where hypocrite statues are crushed
Where your love - the purest
Is free again
For without it I am nothing