1. I NEVER SAID THAT I WAS BRAVE

You might sleep, but you'll never dream
Onward! Progress! Or so it seems.
You might laugh, but you'll never smile.
Come on in and waste away awhile.

When dreams of rings of flowers fade and blur
Giving way to that familiar ill
come over and part your soft white curtains
Where I'm waiting for you still
If you'd unlatch the window,
If you'd let me lay there on your floor
If you'd give me another chance,
If you'd forget the pain I caused before
No use in saying how I'm sorry
So I'm trying not to speak
I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again.


2. FLAMETHROWER

It's the end of the morning
What have I done?
It's finally getting warmer
Oh God what have I done?
Prayers for your soul while hoping mine
Would leave this awful place sometime
Somewhere better with no more pain
You won't love him you'll love me again
I was the one the one who was always here
Fate seeks my soul and it's drawing near
I'd die today if you could forgive me, dear
I said that anything mattered... words
I'd sing you a song I'd love you if I knew how
It's too late to hold or kiss you now
He wont remember were made perfect somehow
"This morning is different" ... words
I look down she's asleep in a place she can smile again
The world will forget her as she disappears to them
I swore I'd love her I'd rather pretend
"All these tears are for you" ... words
With poison within me and everything still
I know now what I have to do (what I never will)
I will lift up my eyes to the hills
Promises, promises, promises ... words


3. DYING IS STRANGE AND HARD

I have my pictures of you, you don't look back at me
A smile I'd almost forgotten, bruises I don't see
Never forgive you for a sky turned from gray to black
Come out and kiss me, darling
I promise I'll kiss you back.
A new head on my shoulder,
A needle in my ear
Every kind word brings new pain
Instead of my eyes,
Her reflection in the mirror.
I have a sickness, but I'm not the only one
Even in health ...
In each other's arms, they're wasting away
Sickened just as I am and crippled with disease
A song comes from above
I look up -- there's a tree and a small brown bird
Even the sparrows have built a nest
But we, poor fools, have built nothing
What a shame not to know that you're dying
Tell us we're dying, tell us again.
I have a sickness
The sparrows built a nest
My crippled, twisted body is swallowed by the earth
As my broken head finds rest.


4. WE KNOW WHO OUR ENEMIES ARE

Save my skin, I need a medic
Hold me down, I'm only sewn down.
Save my teeth, show me you meant it
Catch my death, I'm only sewn together.

My eyelids are heavy, and the night's wearing on
Your story's familiar, and your innocence is gone
We'd burn like the morning then break like your heart
Fall in love without warning just to fall back apart
All fevered and blistered, the whole world at stake
I feel the warmth of her whisper and the cold of my mistakes
Her soul in the balance, my heart in her hands
I made her a widow, she made me a man.


5. FOUR WORD LETTER

I wrote a four word letter
Though I'd lived I hadn't been alive
You held my hem but I traveled blind
Thought I'd sold my soul for something better
The rain came down, it wet my eyes
I didn't mind
It's not me that you've missed
You heard me when I cried
"You've seen you've loved a side of me that died"
I remember sunshine
And you were mine
It's still a little cloudy but there's no rain in sight
You were mine